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I’m Still Standing!
I started this blog because I want to share what I am writing for new believers, but there are few things I want to share first before I start. This blog post is on vengeance.
“I’m still standing better than I ever did,
Looking like a true survivor; feeling like a little kid.
I’m still standing after all this time,
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind.
I’m still standing!”
I watch the cartoon musical Sing the other day, and when Taron Egerton sang this Elton John song, something touched me deep down in my heart. “I’m still standing.”
We all know that vengeance is a good thing when it is a God thing. Our job is to forgive; it is God’s job to act out his perfect love and justice when he sees fit in ways he sees fit.
I think this is one of the most difficult balancing acts in life. Everything inside us cries out for vengeance, for justice, to hurt those people who hurt us. After all, if God is not just, if he does not reward righteousness and punish wickedness, then we have a much bigger problem on our hands, because then he is a liar because he promises to do precisely that: reward righteousness; punish wickedness.
I have often joked with my wife that the best vengeance is to live well. She doesn’t really like it when I say that, but I still think there is some truth to it. If we live in our pain, in our hurt, if we refuse to forgive, then we are only hurting ourselves, allowing those who hurt us more control of our lives than they should. But if we forgive, they lose their power over us and their fate is in the hands of God.
When I heard the song, I realized that after what I have gone through these past nine years ago, that I am still standing. I have forgiven, and then forgiven again, imperfectly at first, as best I could, and then over and over again until I was able to actually mean it. And now I am not just passively removed from it; I am defiantly still standing in the love and grace and forgiveness of God, releasing those who hurt my family and me into the merciful and just hands of God.
They are his concerned now. But I’m still standing!